The last in a series of draft emails I wrote a while ago. Read the rest here: 1, 2, 3, 4
I feel like my brain/mind/whatever is running out of space. The big crunch. I forget. I become overstimulated far too easily. I can't consume the things I NEED to consume because I feel like my brain will explode.
I always feel like I'm having to get myself ready. I keep giving myself more and more of a "run-up". I store things away. I'll consume them all when I'm ready. Which means: when I feel a little less burdened, when it feels a little less immediate, when my mind is clear, whatever that means.
Sometimes I feel like it's laziness and cowardice, sometimes I feel like it's actually self care, because the list of things to read/watch/listen to/do/learn is never ending.